My Family!

People know him as Nate... I know him as my Daddy
People know her as Shawn... I know her as my Mama
People know him as Jacob... I know him as Jacob my Oldest Brother
People know him as Josh... I know him as Josh my Older Brother
People know him as Justen... I know him as Justen my Little Brother and Best Friend
People know him as Jaeden... I know him as Jaeden my Littlest Brother
People know her as Allie/Elizabeth... I know her as Allie my Sister
People know him as William... I know him as William my Little Nephew
People know her as Jaimee... I know her as Jaimee my Little Niece
People know her as Katlyn/Katy... I know her as Katy my Littlest Niece


People know us as the Bastian Family... I know us as the People Who Will Never Be Broken Apart!
I love my family and I never want to lose them!

My Daddy!

As these small tears roll down my face,
I think of my Daddy someone I can't replace!
I think how wonderful it is to have him with me.
My Daddy! Everyday is someone I can see!

He is here for birthdays, normals days, and holidays!
Oh how horrible life would be without my Daddy everyday!
I love my Daddy and how dorky he can be,
I wouldn't change one single thing about my Daddy!

My Daddy! My Teddy Bear! A special part of this family!
I love you Daddy and I hope you can see,
I don't want to lose you in anyway
I love you and that's almost everything I can say!

Don't forget your daughter loves you
No matter what she decides to do
She wants you in her life forever!
She will love you forever!

I love you Daddy!
Don't you forget
Your in heart
For now and ever!

Best Friends

Hearts intertwined, beat as one
Minds isync, think as one
Even when this poem is done
You will always be the sister I never got,
The Best Friend I'll never forget!

Another Love Poem

Another story, another time
He's the only one that's on her mind
Another hour, another day
Unspoken words she'll never say
Another thought, another smile
For him she'll walk another mile
Another poem, another rhyme
She writes for him another line
Another girl, another fear
Just for him, falls another tear
Another boy, another name
He isn't like the others, it isn't the same
Another dream, another fantasy
She doesn't want to live her reality
Another luminous moon shines brightly above
She's just another girl fallen in love.

Anything

Anything is better than this.
Sitting in a den with angry lions, 
Would be a place with bliss
Compared to this place of lies.
Hell itself would be a better place,
This is where people don't care.
Nothing but fear and hate on their face.
No on reaches for others, cuz they don't dare
There people aren't people like me.
This building is the worst jail cell
Please just let me be set free!
Dying for the ring of that very last bell.

Finally at the week of rest.
Then I'm back where I belong at West!

Living Life

He is the one that is always on my mind, 
Without him there would be nothing left of me. 
He gives me a reason to keep trying, to keep living. 
I want to be by his side I just don't know how to. 
He has my heart, he probably doesn't know. 
So here I am living my life just hoping he will notice me.

Heart

Her trusty heart was drained today of care;
For ailing pups and worn out wings and lost
Souls drowning in their cups at such a cost--
The kicks and cuffs that only she would bear.
He rages but can't hurt her now or taunt
A passion he endowed with careless lust
And cold abuse he piled on broken trust
While killing time with whores he loved to flaunt.
Her blackened eyes will see no more of blame
Or dwell upon a lover's feigned regard
That mesmerized her soul but left it scarred
And helpless to escape a cunning flame.

A trusting heart that finally has flown--
With love reflecting hate in polished stone.

My Favorite Place

My favorite place would have to be
Sitting on the beach by the sea
But it has to be watching the sunset
Just sitting in the sand as you see butterflies
The sun lighting the sky
The mothers finally putting their baby down for shut-eye
Nothing to be heard, but the chirping of the night
The mosquitoes slowly starting to bite
The sky turning bright red and yellow
Slowly fading to a dark blue, the moon trying to say hello
The waves slowly and softly coming ashore
This is the time of say I hope for
The stars coming out, starting to shine
So peaceful, so quiet, so beautiful, just perfect
The temperature slowly starts to decline
This s the time and place I will always respect

A Kiss, A Hug, A Dream

A kiss is just a kiss till you find the one you love. 
A hug is just a hug till it's with the one your thinking of. 
A dream is just a dream till it comes true. 
Love is just a four letter word till it's proven to you.

Elizabethan Poem

Alack, for hear these words of longing
Haply words of sadness, joy, or tears
E'en in the darkest night there is lil' light
If you wilt her me out, you wilt cry for joy
Hence forth a place where there are no fears
But that place is far from here
Marry there is such a place
Withal there has to be no broken hearts
Aye that is a place where they don't exist
I wish that place was here
But alack that place is far far away
Happy we will all get there in time

Love Or Hate

Hate is a strong word, but love is stronger
I will never let you go cause of love
My love for you runs deeper than you know
My hate never lasts, my love will always
Heart will be broken but love will not fade
Love is like life it lives and loves and grows
Hate is like death it suffocates and dies
This is the reason people search for love
Without love in this world, live would be dead
The love in my heart is always free
If you lie to me that love will not be
You can get it back but that's not easy
See hate is strong but love is way stronger

Ringing in my Head

Slowly walking home, heart pounding,
Rain softly falling on my face.
His voice ringing in my head,
Like a sweet, addicting melody.
The smile spreading across my face,
Now just wishing I stopped for a hug.

Best Friends

Where have my best friends gone?
The space between feels too long
Have I been replaced?
Has someone taken my place?
Do I still matter?
Or are others better?
Do I still fit in?
Or should stay hidden behind the curtain?
Out of sight
Out of mind
No more light
Just left behind
Where have my best friends gone?
Is the distance really this long?

West High

Missing West High
Hoping to drop by
Friends still there 
And yet I'm here
I want to go back
Friends and hugs, I lack
I want my West High
I shoudn't of said good-bye

Here is very miserable
Almost like a prison cell
Wishing I didn't leave
West High Alumni I will achive!
Wait for me there
Till I come back
Going to get away from here
Cuz friends and hugs I lack

I need my friends
I need to be at West
Will I be happy in the end?
At West? With my friends? With the BEST?!??!?

I'm Nothing

I'm nothing...
Without my family and friends. <333
I know you are here and I know what you bring,
You bring the things I need to be able to make it to the end.
I love you, <333
More than you may think, you are my world and my life.
Don't you ever forget, I'm always here for you,
I'm right beside you through your laughs and your strife.
I'm nothing...
Without the care and support you have freely given. <333
You're always there to catch me when I am falling,
Or pick me up after I have fallen.
I need you, <333
More than you can imagine, I can't face this world alone.
And I know I don't have to with you here,
I am not alone,
And I have no more fears.

I love you so much <33333 


Much Love 

Behind Her Walls

She's fine okay she's fine
Something she says everyday all day
Do you really believe her lies
When pain is all that stays
She talks like everything is okay
She acts like everything's cool
You see her everyday 
If you believe her you must be a fool
She lies, she hides, cuz she cries
She dies, she holds on, cuz she can't let go
She smiles, she laughs, while she dies
Before you know, she is going to blow

Another

Another poem, another line, 
Another girl saying she's fine. 
Another hour, another day, 
She wishes she could get away. 
Another heartbreak, another tear, 
Another excuse she doesn't want to hear...
Another paper, another pen, 
She writes she wants to be strong again. 
Another story, another lie, 
Another night she will cry. 
Another band, another song, 
Another day passed, slowly gone...
Another scream, another doubt, 
"Kill me while I'm down!!!" To him she'd shout. 
Another forced smiled, another broken heart, 
Just another girl wishing her life would restart!!!

Who is That I See?

Inside, her heart screaming in pain
Outside, she pretends to be the same
Hanging with her kills her slowly
Talking to him kills her softly
Almost completely dead
The feeling she always dreads
Her heart keeps breaking as she walks
Pain keeps coming as she talks
Her heart breaking, and there's nohing she can do
Her face now stained with tears
Still she has the nerve to stay in love with you
Is that really me I see looking back in the mirror?

Shame

My heart keeps singing once it hears your name
My heart keeps screaming for you, it's a shame
My heart can't take this anymore
It's done, done for.

It's a shame, it's a shame, it's a shame
My heart keeps wanting you
Keeps screaming your name
It won't let you go, and there's nothing I can do

My heart keeps breaking when it hears your voice
This is my heart it's not my choice
My heart is stuck in this pain
This pain is hard, this is insane

It's a shame, it's a shame, it's a shame
My heart still wanting you
Still screaming your name
It won't let you go, there's really nothing I can do

Needing to let you go
Before my heart blows
This love is stupid
Cuz of what you did

No Soul, No Heart, Just Empty

I don't have a heart, I don't have a soul.
I'm empty, more empty then you know.
He is my life, he has my heart, he has my soul.
There is nothing left of me, but this empty hole.

Who Do You See?

Do you look at me?
Do you look at me and actually see me?
Or do you see someone I'll never be?
This is me you cant change what you see
Sorry if you dont like me
But its who I am and I'm not changing for you
So you looking at me and seeing someone else?
What are you gonna do?
Are you gonna lie to my face? 
Til' someone takes my place?
Or will you look and actually see me?